I will never be able to say I’m 100% certain that I know why I can find so many 4-Leafers, or think the way I think, or why my mind is so good with imagery, but like I said in an interview with Ed Newman, I strongly put forth the power of Love as a potential contributing factor, or at the very least, the confident energy that comes from it. In 2005 I fell deep in love with a girl from Germany named Sarah. I found my second 4-leafer ever only a half-hour before I met her. When she agreed to marry me, I suddenly adopted the outlook of the luckiest man in the world, and even now she helps lift my smile. I really believed no one on Earth could have gotten luckier, and if you saw us together, we were so happy and the odds just kept working out for us, like the world was helping us along. It’s hard to describe what it was like to be with her, like there was glitter in the air. My mind never functioned better than when I was with her, like some huge pressure I had never been aware of was just gone. When the mind-reading came up it was hard for me to deal with, I said some stupid things while thinking out loud, and the psychic stuff scared her away. It was too radical and made her too uncomfortable. Joining the Army just for cheap European flights didn’t help her opinion of me either, and she’s never coming back, but I stand by the fact that her love either gave me these powers, whatever they are, or brought them out. I don’t like the strategy of just forgetting huge chunks of my life, when i do that I forget what I learned, and when i stood with her I was in my supreme form, so it’s been hard moving on. But there’s another side to this coin. I very much fear what I would be capable of if I found myself experiencing the same confidence after acquiring my paranormal skills. All I have had since I left her side is the confidence from the memory of being supremely confident, and I may even have developed a psychological cap on my confidence levels since then, in the form of avoiding things that make me feel better about myself, including psychic practices. And to restate my thesis in another form, these writings are about real magics, and I’d be remiss to omit that the magic of legend that can be shared between two people is real and it’s power is beyond comprehension.
The Vocanic Weird 